I could detect that the way the phone rang, there would be sadness from the other end of the line. Hearing the word hello had never before caught my attention so deeply that I knew what other words would follow. As words calmly creep inside my ear, I fail to recognise any of them and worst of all, all their meanings.

Wrinkles showed themselves where I never imagined they could be.

My eyebrows were pulling towards each other like magnets.

My stomach kept burning and pushing my emotions up to my throat.

My throat was getting weak and couldn´t handle the pressure so it sent it to my head.

My teeth pushed against each other to keep my emotions from erupting.

My brain became the darkest night that anyone could imagine.

My mind and thoughts were trapped and forced to stay in the dark.

My whole body felt tence, useless and so weakend inside.

My eyes failed to control what I wanted to stay hidden within.

Tears began to flow and there was nothing I could think of doing.

Heavier tears pulled me to the ground and all I could think of was, he´s gone.

I could see my tears forming an ocean on the floor but I couldn´t stop.

As I turned me over, I realised how painful it all is.

I was floating and swimming in my every emotions.

My heart was bleeding because someone had torn it apart.

I Don´t want to ever fall in love so deeply again.

It seemed like forever the feeling would prolong.

I have learnt how to guard my heart and how to be strong.

It was too much for me and it took its own time to get over with the pain.

I will say this once more, I will never fall in love so deeply again.