The real truth
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By Marg19 Peaches
Published on 01/3/2009
It was at the age of 20 when I´ve realised the importance of having God in all that I do.
I got saved and baptized at the age of 12. Little did I know that being a christian when it comes to High school was not the best thing anyone could ever ask for. I was not anA student. I most times passed my exams on the average line. I could have been a top student if I was more focussed. But all that was up to me.I hated school and all that comes with it. I just did not care how important school was for me. I remember at age 14 I got involved in a unhealthy and ungodly relationship. I gave this guy most of my heart and some other guys just little pieces. I was setting myself up for an unpleaseant surprise. Throughout High school, I have been with one guy and there was nothing you could say or do to get between us for me to let go off the unhealthy relationship.Though I was not living a fully christian life, it did not stop me from ministering to people at school. I will share testamonies, do dances dramas and skits to teach people more about God. People did admire me in school and I did get alot of respect from the younger gils. It was like heaven if I`d say good morning to some girls. They would be like, wow she said good morning to me. There was this one incident when I was swinging a piece of door that was hangen unto one frame at school, one of these respectful gils were passing so she said excuse me and I swung the door and almost hit her but unintentionally. I shouted oh sorry and she replied you´re welcome. It took me until the last few weeks in school to realise that the younger students admired me and I was somehow disappointed that I was never a good example.If only they could see my life off the school compound.
After I left school, I suggested marriage to my so called boyfriend and it was a big no no. He explained that he was not ready and that I was maybe too young to know what I really wanted. He was afraid of committment and of course wouldn´t want to lose his other gilfriends. I kept on bringing up marriage to him but it was always the same. He is just not ready. I said ok, I have to think now for myself. If this guy really loves me as he says he does then he will try to do whats best for us. I thought it over and over until I decided ok this will be the end of it. I will break off this relationship. I remembered crying and telling God though I am young I want to do what is right. He was my perfect husband to be yet I don´t think our relationship was based on pure love. I cried before I told himlook, it wont work. I knew in myself that it will be tough to let go but I knew as well that it was the right thing to do. For days I did not eat. Crying myself to sleep became a hobby. I felt like I had some major breakdown and all the pain was unbearable.
I asked the lord to help me through it all. Slowly but surely things were looking a bit brighter for me being free from this relationship.I have also gained knowledge from this experience. Do you know why it hurt when you are heartbroken? It hurts because it was not meant to be. Jesus wants to save us all this pain by telling us to wait on that perfect timing for that perfect person and if we run ahead of him, broken hearts will be the outcome. God knows all the corners of unhealthy relationships and he sets rules for us to follow not to hurt us but to save us from the hurt that things such as these cause.
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After this time I was dating other people trying to see who will be the husband I want. Also dating and trying to get rid of my old feelings from my previous relationship. All of a sudden all these guys that I was interested in had other plans and were moving away and things just went to zero. I thought it would be easy to find me someone who loves me within a week. It just never happened.
In that same year after my major breakup and trying to find me someone I started a Dicipleship Training school. I´ve been wanted to do this training as soon as Hight school was completed. There were around 9 people in my batch. We started this school in September and it went on til February of the following year. In the mid November or so I noticed that one of the male students were leaning towards me and was showing me a bit of interest (though he thought I was too cute so I must be already taken). In talking and getting to know him throughout this school, we started dating and right after traning school was over, he proposed to me.I tell you, it was the one time I noticed that a heart could really pump with joy. A nice white golden ring just for me. I was thankful to God that I did not have to suggest marriage but that it happend on its own.
We were engaged for about 11 months and then we got married. We served as missionaries together for a year. And then moved to Europe. It is incredible to see how God works. I have always wanted to get married at a young age. Its been wonderful. Praise God for his favores on my life. If only I had waited just a bit longer, I would not have had to go through all that pain.
An experience that taught me to be patient.
The real truth
It was at the age of 20 when I´ve realised the importance of having God in all that I do.
I got saved and baptized at the age of 12. Little did I know that being a christian when it comes to High school was not the best thing anyone could ever ask for. I was not anA student. I most times passed my exams on the average line. I could have been a top student if I was more focussed. But all that was up to me.I hated school and all that comes with it. I just did not care how important school was for me. I remember at age 14 I got involved in a unhealthy and ungodly relationship. I gave this guy most of my heart and some other guys just little pieces. I was setting myself up for an unpleaseant surprise. Throughout High school, I have been with one guy and there was nothing you could say or do to get between us for me to let go off the unhealthy relationship.Though I was not living a fully christian life, it did not stop me from ministering to people at school. I will share testamonies, do dances dramas and skits to teach people more about God. People did admire me in school and I did get alot of respect from the younger gils. It was like heaven if I`d say good morning to some girls. They would be like, wow she said good morning to me. There was this one incident when I was swinging a piece of door that was hangen unto one frame at school, one of these respectful gils were passing so she said excuse me and I swung the door and almost hit her but unintentionally. I shouted oh sorry and she replied you´re welcome. It took me until the last few weeks in school to realise that the younger students admired me and I was somehow disappointed that I was never a good example.If only they could see my life off the school compound.
After I left school, I suggested marriage to my so called boyfriend and it was a big no no. He explained that he was not ready and that I was maybe too young to know what I really wanted. He was afraid of committment and of course wouldn´t want to lose his other gilfriends. I kept on bringing up marriage to him but it was always the same. He is just not ready. I said ok, I have to think now for myself. If this guy really loves me as he says he does then he will try to do whats best for us. I thought it over and over until I decided ok this will be the end of it. I will break off this relationship. I remembered crying and telling God though I am young I want to do what is right. He was my perfect husband to be yet I don´t think our relationship was based on pure love. I cried before I told himlook, it wont work. I knew in myself that it will be tough to let go but I knew as well that it was the right thing to do. For days I did not eat. Crying myself to sleep became a hobby. I felt like I had some major breakdown and all the pain was unbearable.
I asked the lord to help me through it all. Slowly but surely things were looking a bit brighter for me being free from this relationship.I have also gained knowledge from this experience. Do you know why it hurt when you are heartbroken? It hurts because it was not meant to be. Jesus wants to save us all this pain by telling us to wait on that perfect timing for that perfect person and if we run ahead of him, broken hearts will be the outcome. God knows all the corners of unhealthy relationships and he sets rules for us to follow not to hurt us but to save us from the hurt that things such as these cause.
.
After this time I was dating other people trying to see who will be the husband I want. Also dating and trying to get rid of my old feelings from my previous relationship. All of a sudden all these guys that I was interested in had other plans and were moving away and things just went to zero. I thought it would be easy to find me someone who loves me within a week. It just never happened.
In that same year after my major breakup and trying to find me someone I started a Dicipleship Training school. I´ve been wanted to do this training as soon as Hight school was completed. There were around 9 people in my batch. We started this school in September and it went on til February of the following year. In the mid November or so I noticed that one of the male students were leaning towards me and was showing me a bit of interest (though he thought I was too cute so I must be already taken). In talking and getting to know him throughout this school, we started dating and right after traning school was over, he proposed to me.I tell you, it was the one time I noticed that a heart could really pump with joy. A nice white golden ring just for me. I was thankful to God that I did not have to suggest marriage but that it happend on its own.
We were engaged for about 11 months and then we got married. We served as missionaries together for a year. And then moved to Europe. It is incredible to see how God works. I have always wanted to get married at a young age. Its been wonderful. Praise God for his favores on my life. If only I had waited just a bit longer, I would not have had to go through all that pain.